havent had dat much tyme and energy to juz sit and post an entry. werk has kept me away frm daily lives. frm my loved ones. and i miss dem. and hym. yes! hym! don bother to ask y..
it was a rather quiet day at werk. most of dem are at the SITEX exhibition @ EXPO. and i tot i wont be able to see my Mr.J haha! but hell yeah! he came back ard noon! hapi hapi hapi! but i didnt talk as much as i used to today. maybe i was too lazy too talk.
and its been awhile since i last saw Mr.D! i wonder where he'd gone to.. it was juz a mere luck dat i saw him juz now..after lyke...2weeks? hah! there u go! and he smiled! =)
he's goin off fer a short trip tmr. damn! will be back oni on sunday! im sure to miss hym!!!! yes! wateva pple say abt me...i will miss hym fer sure!
my dearest, have a safe journey! i'll be waiting fer you here... patiently. i love you! and will miss you!
i somehow felt better after talking n letting it out to adlina. reali! way better den during the day. tink its a new record. coz dis is definately my first tyme talking and sharing my thoughts and feeling to her. i don remember sharing aniting lyke dis wif her. i made d move to text her becoz i remembered her replyin to one of my post saying... "even tho we're not DAT close, don feel like you can't talk to me k!" i haf those werds stored in my mind. reali! and sumtymes u reali nid to talk to sumone who've been in the situation ur in. so.. i had her in mind! =) and to know dat we haf dis one ting in common, dat makes a plus point. i guess. hehe..
be loud or be soft? which is better? hmm.. it has to be equal, i belif. i nid to do sum serious self-reflection. and i nid tyme off. nid to go on indefinite hiatus.
i realy pray dis will werk. insya'allah. lyke adlin say.. i haf to tell myself dat i can. i nid to do self encouragement&motivation. cant be too dependant.
i source for strength, encouragement & motivation.
*no one knows im dying inside. i nid to get my life back.*
please believe me again at 2:19 AM
Y Tuesday, August 29, 2006
i decided to blog here fer the mean tyme tho i noe i've actli closed dis url down. but ouh well..juz feel lyke doin it here.